tear filled learning

Emotions were high today on Ridgegate Lane.
Perseverance comes at a price...
My reserves seemed sparse...

This face pretty much sums up the Hopefuls today...

Starting with the tiniest on up to the eldest royal...

We've shed our share...

It's tempting to turn away during these times...

To hide and pretend all feels well...

Reality still holds true...

All is better than well...

But this is still how we feel...

Tears have made their way on our faces.

Fatigue... a faithful foe...

Fond friend of the enemy.

Poor little Charli...

Tenderness exploding out of her like time bombs...

She weeps hard.

She weeps often.

She weeps freely.

Her eyes tell our story...

Whether it's Panda's over-emotional outbursts...

Prince's heart and physical boo-boos..

Eloise's tender missing...

Emmiline's fatigue and frustrations..

Or the Mama's ache of feeling tired and left behind...

We're all hyper-needy tonight.

So what do we do???

As with most opportunities...

We try to learn through the mess of our tears.

Most of my learning these days seem to start with apologies...

Today had plenty of those too...

It also had no shortage of these...

Big and the small coming together... 

Both offering...

Both receiving...

Lots of weeping in the weeding.

With peeking peonies... offering their fragrant reminders...

Little stories watch on...

Wondering what I will do with the lurking weeds...

How will I let my beauty grow alongside that which seemingly suffocates?

All I really know to do...

Is cry... and cry out...

To...

Remember...

Retell...

Risk...

Learn...

Live...

Set my gaze on the True Gardener...

Focus on the blooming...

All of them...

Treasure them in my arms...

As we rock each other steady through the abundance of today's tears...

Singing truth in love over them as I cry and learn alongside.